Monster Job Meditation

Long time, no see. I've been busy the last few months, but now I'm back! What did I do, you ask? Well, I quit my job, started meditating and got really into Dune and Monster Hunter. That sounds super pretentious. I need to unpack that.

I was promised one job when I was hired almost a year ago, a job that sounded interesting and like a new challenge. As it often happens, priorities shifted, the situation changed, and before I knew it, I was embedded in a work environment I didn't want to be in. I won't go into specifics, but suffice it to say, I was not happy with the way things were going.

So I quit.

Which is scary, especially during a pandemic, and even more especially (that's not a turn of phrase) with two kids. But, as luck would have it, I found a new job almost immediately and I'm looking forward to my first day, which is coming up soon. I start in May at a small agency where I will spend my days writing Django code, which I have a bit of experience with. Yay.

I am super fortunate to live in a country with a robust social security net and to work in a field where there are more openings than people to fill it. It's an absolute privilige and if you'd told me 20 years ago, that I'd earn a decent living with something I like, I'd ask you "I'm alive in 20 years?" So, yeah, happy.

Another big change from my previous jobs is that I decided to work four, instead of five full days. Obviously the pay is lower. I'm trading money for time here (or is it time for money?); I was burning out on the 40 hour grind and decided to change it. Another massive sign of privilege that I was even in a position to negotiate that decision with my family. I'm super grateful for the way my life has gone over the past decade, despite all the horrors of my youth and the baggage I'm still carrying from that time.

Anyway, I'll have a whole day open for my personal projects from now on: this blog, which is in desperate need of some backend renovations, a few (web)app ideas I've been kicking around for years, and, obviously, making games. It's a whole different vibe and I'm looking forward to how it will shake out. There'll be growing pains for sure, but I feel energized.

I've also started meditating and that helps a lot with the ol' mood as well. I don't know what to say about it, though, other than I'm not using an app or anything like that. Old school, eyes closed, focused on breathing. The whole idea behind it, at least for me, was to get out of myself, out of the constant loop of my mind which is constantly in overdrive, so why would I want to track that? Seems to defeat the purpose. But to each their own.

I've reread the first Dune novel for the first time in fifteen years and oh boy, can a few years make a difference. I thought there was some good stuff in it the first time around (I liked the Lynch movie a whole lot more), but never cared enough to keep reading. But this time, I devoured the first one and ordered the next few immediately. The world building, the characters (Lady Jessica! Stilgar!), the philosophy... all just so much of what I need right now. I can't wait to read the next book...after I've logged a few more hours in Monster Hunter Rise. My GOTY already, 45 hours into it, which, if you know anything about how a full-time job & two kids & pandemic do to your time, is an incredible amount of time I was able to put into this game. It pushes all the right buttons for me.

Speaking of buttons, I'll push the publish one right now, which is not a button, but a set of scripts, and then I'll think about how I can turn it into an actual button.